I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare

I went radio silent because I was living my dang life. To recap the time I missed, there was a break up, a make up, a shake up, lots of wake ups and now you are caught up.

You know who else was living their life? My family! I have cousins making babies, keeping babies alive, marrying and getting engaged. I on the other hand just realized the house plant I have kept alive for over a year was actually made of plastic and my biggest accomplishment to date was getting my email inbox down to 0 last week. So, as you can see I am still thriving.

My nana has 8 grandchildren and I am the oldest grand daughter. In high school all the aunts, uncles, and grandparents placed bets on which of the cousins would be the first to marry, first to have kids, etc. No one voted for me, in fact some people joked that my youngest cousin who is half my age would marry before I would. He was a baby at the time so this was hysterical then, but honestly, they might not be wrong. I am the only granddaughter that hasn’t married and it is slim pickings out here, so not likely to change any time soon.

Most of my cousins that are closest in age to me are just at a different part of their life. Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy for them and can’t wait to be the fun aunt that spoils the kids, gets them hopped up on sugar and then dumps them back off at home for their parents to deal with. I am so excited for this that sometimes I think, “should I have a kid, right now?” Yes, I realize a key ingredient is missing for this to happen, but science these days, am I right?

Anyway, I was thinking this through at the grocery store the other day and found my answer in the trunk of the car. Random, I know. Well, as I was loading my groceries (all the fixings to make spicy margs) I thought wow, these ingredients must be so fresh, I can already smell the Margarita. That is when I looked down and saw my new bottle of Casamigos smashed and the precious tequila being absorbed into all the surroundings. The surroundings just happened to be the gift my nana asked me to keep safe for my baby nephew. So, now next week when I see him for the first time, I have the honor of gifting my baby cousin a tequila marinated book and onesie. I had to wait till college till I had my first tequila soaked book, so I like to think I am helping my cousin to be ahead of the curve.

This also made me realize that, no, I should not have a kid right now. Because as it turns out I am still just a kid, and once my family finds out about the tequila incident, my life might be a nightmare!